Listening to the Voices in my Head

Tick tock tick tock tick tock

Time and days keep moving forward, but I feel stuck in loop.

I've had three different doctors, specialist, etc etc, look at my knee and I will sum up their findings:

My knee is borked enough to make my life rather miserable, keeping me mostly housebound, or on just short trips, with a healthy dose of neuropathy, but not bad enough to have remedial surgery/measure.

I'm trying to stay upbeat, but I'm tired. Tired of plastering a smile on my face, putting up cheery conversation, when all I really want to do is put my head under a pillow and cry.

I am on medications galore, and one of them makes me queasy, dizzy, dry mouthed,  and drowsy. Two others make me drowsy, another will give me horrible acid reflux unless enough 'with food' is eaten. And two of them give me another problem, but I'm going to give that description a miss.

I've been told that the symptoms from the first one I described 'should' go away after a few weeks.  Anyone else ever want to ask the doctors  "Define 'a few weeks', please."?

I will muddle through, leg propped on foot stool, Loki snugged up next to me, and hope for the best.

New medication, new side effects

GP prescribed duloxetine to help with the 'hyperalgesia' in my left knee.  Been on it for going on a week.

Why is it every medication to 'fix' problem make me drowsy, sleepy, brainfogged?

Current new side effects:  Feeling dizzy, blurred vision, feeling nausea (thankfully, no vomiting) and dry mouth.

I have been told they will lessen with time. Oh gawd I hope so. Walking around feeling half asleep. feeling the room spin isn't fun.

As much as I dread it

Tomorrow, I go for my ultrasound guided injection into my left knee joint.  Because right now, even icing and pain meds are working. If fewking HURTS.  Even keeping my leg in the knee brace isn't helping.  Move the leg, sharp stabbing pain, don't move the leg, continuous low level throbbing pain.

Why does everything that will 'fix' me have to hurt like hell?